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Tuesday, April 24, 2007

Tue, 24 Apr 2007 18:28:23 GMT

I Promise <b> You </b>

From the bottom of my <b> heart </b>

I will LOVE you Till Death Do Us Part

<3 Konstantine

He = L. O. V. E.

Mon, 11 Sep 2006 04:04:43 GMT

Wake

Me

Up

When

Semptember

Ends.

<333 Holiday. (( Konstantine N Ender ))

I'm sorry

Sun, 27 Aug 2006 18:15:12 GMT

I can't take it anymore.

</3

I can't handle this
But I can handle anything else.

<33 Your Beauty Is Fading <33

Sat, 05 Aug 2006 23:21:29 GMT

I Stand Alone.

(( So many problems in life, make me wonder if it's really worth living. ))

I Stand Alone.

(( Addictions, everything that I believe, Is fading ))

I Stand Alone.

(( Fighting is stupid, Unless there's a reason, or it's self defense ))

I Stand Alone.

(( Make me believe that this place isn't made by the poision in me ))

I Stand Alone.

(( Help me decide if my fire will burn out before you can breath. ))

<333 Jessie
... what real friends do I have left? Other than my one true BEST friend... and the 6 who have best friend potential.

Wednesday, July 05, 2006

Wed, 05 Jul 2006 03:02:29 GMT

his
" I Miss You "

ment the world to me..

And his
" Love You Too, Talk To You Later "

ment more.

<3 Jessie

Wednesday, June 21, 2006

Wed, 21 Jun 2006 19:32:54 GMT

So..
this summer has rocked completly..
I am definatly happy..

Kelli Summer and I almost died the other day cuz some truck was driving in the middle of the road... yeah, that was scary..
And then a building was obstrucing the view of the oen way street...
Plus cops dont pay much attention.. so whatever...

REASON IM UPDATING IS TO LET YOU ALL KNOE...

I've decided to write in my journal again so you knoe what I do all the time and how I feel I dont care if you read it... therefor... here is the address...
http://anotherwinglessangel.journalhell.com

congrats.

<333 Jesus

Sunday, June 11, 2006

Sun, 11 Jun 2006 22:36:06 GMT

This could be love!

I tried to be PERFECT

I tried to be HONEST

I tried to be EVERYTHING THAT YOU EVER WANTED

I tried to be STRONGER

I tried to be SMARTER

I tried to be EVERYTHING ... BUT YOU

&&
To Be ((Perfectly)) Honest

                     I DIDNT TRY VERY HARD

Note To Self:
        I (( Dont )) Miss You Terribly

Note To Self:
          Everything seems ->>-- PERFECT-->

<333 Jessie

One Weird Fucking Night...

Sat, 03 Jun 2006 12:01:35 GMT

When he says POLLUTION. I dont knoe what it is cuz my mind spelled it PULL-OSSHH-UN and I was thinking it was soem slang term for it.

There are alligators in the river.
And the fish are crazy.

When I say birds are gunna comewith us, im serious.
Spiders are scary as hell..

Im afraid of the dark hardcore.
And We almost his a car, and i said it real calm.

That was such a fun night hanging out with him.

<3 Jessie

This could mean GOODBYE for us!

Thu, 01 Jun 2006 06:11:28 GMT

So yeah, i live in the past, WAY TO OFTEN. I'm having like a mental breakdown right now. kinda shaky, kinda crying, this sucks. but im just thinking about how wonderful life was. I mean im really happy right now. Like hardcore, but i wish some things never changed.

what started this??

the song "house of teh rising sun"
reminded me of Daniel. Which basically brought up last year. My freshman year KICKED ASS! i loved it. I loved my seniors. i loved band , i didnt mind swimming, i got good grades, Josh and i had a good relationship, our life style wasnt the best but it suited me. there was no drama. but none of that has anything to do with what im thinking about so i really dont kneo why im writing about it. so im gunna bring it back to subject.

PAULA'S PLACE

dude, that place was like... my life, i worked all the time, I loved it there, I met some of the best people in the world, sang usually once a week karaoke with kalee, and then katie, I lost someone VERY close to me. And I had the best times ever.

lets see, i cant believe the things I said about Paula. I called her a bitch and said i hated her, what the hell? I love her! and i cant beleive i ever said it! what was i thinking!?
and I dunno, I didnt like alot of those people and then we all just clicked, and i was like... woah.

Shawn- 4/4/05 : ( I loved him, he was the 1st person i talked to there, and i had to lose him so soon, and i was so torn up by that. RIP. Ill miss you for the rest of my life! and ill never forget you!

Shane- I didnt even like him at first, and by the time it quit, he was like, awesome, he was hilarious, and one of my very good friends, even tho he was so much older than me...

Billy- we are getting married, we were in love, ha, our times in the cooler... we wont talk about that tho... and I dunno, he was AWESOME, we closed together on purpose sometimes... and I liked going with george to pick him up and tell him he was late... someone was a little hung over... and he stayed the nigth and slept on my porch, that was ridiculous.

George- lets sing some more. haha, grocery runs when thats definatly not allowed were the best...

Jim- he was SOOOOOO old. and couldnt use RRR's ... "yeah wight" haha, whatever, he was still dumb... but i do miss him...

Dusty- he took such a long time on delieverys... which i never got to do since i wasnt there anymore. DAMN. But whatever, i still see him tho.

Shawn- i lost touch with him. we werent that close. but whatever.

Cathy- she was such a nice girl, but i didnt like her much at first.

Tereasa- still not sure if i like her : )

Nikki- she left like, i dunno, way to early to move to flordia. Great going away party tho.

And omg, Tony, Szabo, Tom, And even Pedro..
this is fuckign stupid, we all fell apart because of a fucking liqour license and a fucking stupid whore!!!

Sigh, sorry about the ranting... but... im fucking sick of the way life it right now (im happy tho...)

I just want my old work back.
Screw the place im at now.
Ill just bring Drew with me...

<3 Jesus

I DONT WANT THIS FEELING TO GO AWAY

Sat, 27 May 2006 23:33:40 GMT

I WANNA TURN THE WHOLE THING UPSIDE DOWN

ILL FIND THE THINGS THEY SAY JSUT CANT BE FOUND

ILL SHARE THIS LOVE I FIND WITH EVERYONE

WE'LL SING AND DANCE TO MOTHER NATURES SONG

I DONT WANT THIS FEELING TO GO AWAY

im super happy right now.
and no im not lying.
everything right now is PERFECT

sure I lost 3 best friends.
But there went the DRAMA.
and the KONFUSION
and there went trying to make them happy.

FUCK THAT!

Everything is the way it should be now.
I can't wait for 4 o'clock tomorrow.

but I AM MAD. that he cut his hair.
And all because of a hacky-sack game.
JESUS. haha

But whatever.
Everything is better now.

Burning parties are FUN!

F- is for friends who do stuff together
U- is for you and me
N- is for N-E-where and N-E- time at all
Down here in the deep blue sea

<3 Jesus